Those of us that suffer from acne during our adult years are often quite sensitive souls, we feel so much and take on so much. Often over-worrying about friends, loved ones, work – even whether or not we locked the front door properly on our way out!
Being sensitive isn’t always a bad thing! Sensitive folk are usually highly intuitive and very in tune with their own bodies but with this sensitivity often comes a lack of self love.
Whether you’ve spent months or years struggling with your acne, feeling trapped, ashamed, even disgusted with the bare-skinned reflection staring back at you, the journey to self love isn’t easy. Loving yourself is an important part of enjoying and getting the most out of your life and changing your mindset and accepting yourself is an important part of your journey to clear skin.
What’s the first thing you do in the morning?
The first thing I’ve done every morning for the past 13 years is give my skin a quick feel. Preparing myself for any new outbreaks or blemishes before the dreaded moment I’d have to look at my reflection in the bathroom mirror and be confronted with the reality of what my skin had to offer that day.
The importance of self love when healing acne
I remember my first breakout clearly, it was the summer after my 11th birthday. I was on holiday with my family and overnight my skin erupted across my forehead. I remember my parents saying it was probably due to the sun lotion but back home in the UK my skin didn’t really clear up. So my life with acne began.
Over the past 13 years, I’ve cried many tears over acne. I’ve felt completely helpless, often mortified at my appearance. Unable to look anyone in the eye and always feeling devastated and ashamed whenever anyone asked me what I did for a living. Who, in their right mind, would take beauty advice from someone with a complexion like mine?
It was summer 2014, I had been trying to improve my eating habits for about a year and a half when a superior at work (very insensitively) suggested I told all the guests at a beauty event I was due to host that evening that my acne was down to a terrible allergic reaction – that way they wouldn’t think it was anything to do with the brand I was representing. To me, this confirmed all my fears, that despite my knowledge and expertise in my field, my acne meant that I was incapable of doing the job properly. After the initial shock at her comments, I took myself to the toilets and starting bawling my eyes out. That was it. It was time to stop ignoring my acne and start focussing on the real root cause of my skin problems. I remember that afternoon like it was yesterday. The memory still cuts deep, it’s only been recently that the pain from that one insensitive comment started to fade. That comment took over my thought process for a long, long time, I couldn’t shake the feeling that everyone was staring at my skin, analysing it and thinking I wasn’t good enough. It’s negative thoughts and fears like this that are so, SO important to overcome if you really want to heal you skin for good.
It’s really easy to put yourself down. We all do it, don’t we? Whether it’s about our skin, our bodies or our skills and talents. These negative thoughts create stress surrounding our acne which can lead to more inflammation and further breakouts. I found affirmations to be a really helpful tool in changing my thought process and turning negative thoughts into more positive ones. Whenever I looked in the mirror and found myself thinking “If only I didn’t have acne, I could be pretty” or “I’m never, ever going to rid myself of acne” I started saying out loud instead “I am more than my skin” or “I am naturally beautiful when I am myself”. I would breathe deeply and say these affirmations over and over until they began to have a positive influence on my mind set. Give it a try! I promise you, it will help.
Recently, I enjoyed an holiday away with friends and family. It was the first time I’d had a proper holiday in over 3 years and boy did I need it! Since my last holiday, 3 years ago, my acne has been worse than ever and with it being a beach holiday I was terrified of exposing my bare skin for all to see. The first few days I wanted to hide under my beach towel, I found myself keeping my head down and turning my face away when having a conversation with anyone to stop my scars from being so exposed. However, with each day, I found myself getting stronger. I stopped thinking and worrying about my skin every single moment of every single day. I began to let go and accept myself…
“I am going to beat acne”
I’ve been telling myself this for the last 2 years, however it’s only been the last few weeks that I’ve truly started believing it. The helplessness, shame and frustration over my skin is slowly slipping away. I’m not terrified of looking into the mirror anymore. I’m gaining confidence and I’m happier, healthier and more content and free than I’ve ever felt before.
I finally feel I’m on home stretch and looking back over the past 13 years, I’m proud to say that acne has been one of the best thing that has happened to me. It’s been a long and painful journey but without these struggles, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I would still be suffering with poor digestion, sugar addiction, fatigue and a general lack of wellbeing. It may sound like a strange comment to make, but I’m truly grateful for the skin problems I’ve endured. Without them, I wouldn’t have discovered my passion and I definitely wouldn’t be here helping others on their own person journey to clear skin!
If you take one thing away from this post, then just remember this: We are all amazing! Don’t let self-doubt ruin the beauty you were born with. Hold your head up high and look people right in the eye and be proud of who you are, and what you stand for.
You are so much more than your skin.
Peace, Love & Clear Skin